It has been months I got engaged with the person I never knew before and few days are left in I will be married, but this time I know much about him and am happy for my marriage and ready too.;) In one of my previous blog where I have mentioned how worry I used to get when anybody starts talking to me about marriage n all.But for this person I don't know how all things got set itself that I couldn't back out:). Now,I really believe that marriages are made in heaven.:) .And yes,Now I am happy and contented too with what God has gifted me.
Inspite of having this nice courtship period, when I look and observe our new phase of life which is yet to start, make my feeling mixed about it. Sometimes.. I feel happy for this new phase of life considering it will be cool & rosy all the time sometimes I get worry about the new challenges and responsibilities that will come across to me. I will have to follow those whether I want to or not. It's really double-faced phase of life.Isn't??
These days when I see new couples around me, they seems happiest as if they have never been so happy before. I also looked at the old couples with their childs. In both the case I try to find me but no.. I don't want to be any of that kind. In first case it seems like you are over reacting on what you got but actually there's nothing new to the world and in other case I seems like you even don't know how to keep that simple smile daily which sometimes back, used to made someone's day brighter.. both expressions give me false image of life after marriage.. n If you look at the lady after the years of marriage she doesn't seems graceful or relaxed now.
I am understanding the truth of life, and I am ready to face it but Is this marriage that heavy that we don't carry ourself the way we want, the way we want to laugh, the way we want to talk. I am learning from these faces how can I improve such faces for me in future. Let's see how it goes.;)
